These days, I’m getting asked a lot when I’m going to compete again. Truth be told, I don’t know. I had planned on a May 15 show but because of my broken foot, it had to be put off. 

 3 mos ago, I dramatically changed my workout regime and honestly as much as I HATE change, I’m loving it. I’m focusing more on my glutes. Hard, heavy lifting to build that badonk. I’m slowly making progress, patience grasshoppa (I’m not really known for this being a character trait). Will I compete again? It’s still on my mind, however the time and focus I’m putting in is working. I’m ok right now taking the time to grow. The first shows I did, they were more about the lean out, I needed those experiences to bring me here. I remember my first coach saying “all you really need is 12 weeks”, which is very true if you’re committed. It’s not my path right now. I’m PR’ing every week, even if it’s an extra few reps or 5 lil pounds. Also, I was fucking miserable with the diet the first time, I was tired and HANGRY 24/7, I would have eaten a leather chair of he’d said I was allowed. I swore I wouldn’t do it that way again. The second show, I messed around with a few types of diets to get me to the stage-all requiring me to do 80-90 mins of cardio DAILY. Again, misery. FUCK THAT. I was determined to walk the stage on that show that day so I did it, every day. Even doing all that cardio and diet manipulation, I looked great but still 10# heavier than I wanted to be (as a competitor, you know how much 10# can be). 

So now, I’m slowing it down, growing. Educating myself more about nutrition so that I don’t have to go to extremes like I did before. I know if and when I compete again, a serious shred will be necessary-I’ve enjoyed this bulk, a lot. Don’t get me wrong, I’m loving every curve on my body. Matter of fact, my 3* birthday is next month and I’m determined to wear this one dress, and there’s the local bakery, Portos (potato balls=amazeballs), they make this shortbread fruit tart thingy that I could roll around naked in with my mouth wide open and eat it that way, well that’s what I want as my cake. I will mind my p’s and q’s and stick to eating right til then as long as I get it! So you can lead me into temptation but…my will is stronger than yours 😜